Corban had his first soccer practice last week! I can't believe it! Whether you have children or not, I am sure that you think about and have dreams for your children and their future. Joshua and I both dream that our children will follow in our footsteps and be athletes. While we dream this, I will add and have to constantly remind myself that they will be what God wants them to be. I was fortunate to have participated in sports as well as be forced to play in the band. I appreciate it much more now and I know my Mom is saying, "I told you so!" Anyways, on Tuesday I was slightly stressed about adding a new thing to our finally smoothed out routine. I concerned myself with getting half of dinner cooked while the other half is prepared so Joshua could pop it in the oven after practice. I was concerned with getting my husband's coat that he forgot. I was concerned with chasing down a little one to wrestle while I changed him. All of this just so we could get to practice on time and I could head to teach my class. I was so concerned with it that I did that thing that you do when your kids are sending a barrage of questions your way while you are so in your head thinking, "Am I crazy? IS this too much? Is this too soon?" You know that thing. When you answer with short answers and you turn the radio up a bit for some escape and distraction. But, thankfully, God presented me with a moment of pure joy. Corban asked me, "Mommy, who is on my team? Are they going to be nice? Are they the bad guys? I will shoot the bad guys! (again, with his finger gun...don't mess with this fella!)" I suddenly realized that if I was having doubts and fears that my 4 1/2 year old most definitely was too. I got out of my head and said, "Sweetheart! They are nice people and you are going to have so much fun. It sounds like you are a little nervous. Can I say a prayer for you to not be scared or nervous? He replied, "Yes, and I want you to do it." I couldn't even start the prayer with words before the tears spilled onto my face. He asked me as I prayed, "Mommy, why are there tears in your eyes?" I told him, "I have tears in my eyes because my heart is so full of joy that it's coming out of my eyes!" He just took a deep breath and sweetly shook his head and rolled his eyes as if to say, "Oh Mom!" That made me laugh out loud. Wow! How incredible of a moment. It hit me in that moment that all the dreams I had for Corban are here and happening and I was letting life make it become a burden. I thanked God that day for such a change of heart and for opening my eyes so I could see that my child needed prayer. The best part was that he welcomed it. It was not about the sports that I dreamed my child to play, it was about the fact that my child knows that he needs the Lord! Thank you God!
Monday, March 8, 2010
Posted by Elizabeth Mullins at 3:11 PM